Fucked up

[PTE23]

Been on a cycle of test and masteron and about a week ago my brother and I were attacked outside a bar. I was stabbed 8 times in the back and shoulder area and just released from the hospital after surgery and on a shit ton of pain medicine. My brother was not so lucky and didnt even make it to the hospital. Needless to say I cant train for a long time. I do not want to come off though due to the fact that I believe my recovery will be much faster on the gear so Im going to stay on 300 mg mast and 300 mg test

[SIKNIK]

Sorry to hear about that and am i reading this correct your brother passed away?If so im so sorry bro and hope you heal quick.

[priest]

Thats fucked bro. Im so sorry to hear that. I hope those fuckers get whats coming to them.

[Tyrone]

Been on a cycle of test and masteron and about a week ago my brother and I were attacked outside a bar. I was stabbed 8 times in the back and shoulder area and just released from the hospital after surgery and on a shit ton of pain medicine. My brother was not so lucky and didnt even make it to the hospital. Needless to say I cant train for a long time. I do not want to come off though due to the fact that I believe my recovery will be much faster on the gear so Im going to stay on 300 mg mast and 300 mg test

I'd just stay on test so as not to crash to hard but I have to ask why the hell you even care at this point if your "brother was not so lucky and didn't even make it to the hospital"...To me this implies that he was murdered:confused::confused::eek:

[PTE23]

Yup he was murdered and no arrests as of yesterday. It was 8 different people and it was all kind of a blur but I was able to identify one of them out of a line up. Tyrone I care because I want to heal ASAP and I need to be able to get back to work

[DTownDandy]

What state do you live in? This is why its our fucking right to bear arms and we should be able to conceal and carry ANYTIME/ANYWHERE

[Tyrone]

Yup he was murdered and no arrests as of yesterday. It was 8 different people and it was all kind of a blur but I was able to identify one of them out of a line up. Tyrone I care because I want to heal ASAP and I need to be able to get back to work

:(Well I'm so sorry to hear that...I'd just either stay on a low dose of test or ask the Dr. to perscribe it so as not to get more depressed.

[PTE23]

I live in Washington and I wish I had had a gun but we dont go around looking for this kind of bullshit, just went out for a game of pool and a beer. The guys were fucking Mexican gangbangers kept saying "ese' and shit like that but cowards couldnt even fight with their fists even though it was 8 on two. So I got to watch my brother die and spend 6 days pissing through a tube. My family is totally fucked up, my sister left college, my dad cant and I cant work and I had no insurance, but luckily Crime Victim Services are going to pay for the medical bills. I cant even function with out 20 mg Oxycodone every 3 hours. My brother was my best friend and training partner so I really am down about this, guess I wrote this thread for more support than cycle advice cause I dont really need that

[PTE23]

http://www.b-townblog.com/2009/11/12/bad-time-at-goodtime-ernies-as-man-killed-in-double-stabbing/

The media is fucking stupid. The fight did not "spill outside the bar" we were attcked in the parking lot

[DTownDandy]

http://www.b-townblog.com/2009/11/12/bad-time-at-goodtime-ernies-as-man-killed-in-double-stabbing/

The media is fucking stupid. The fight did not "spill outside the bar" we were attcked in the parking lot

WOW...this makes me sick....

I will pray for you, your brother (RIP), and your family bro.
DO NOT come off of test as tyrone mentioned, the depression will overwhelm you...even with PCT. Stick it out on 100mgs a week until you fight thru this.

Keep you chin up bro, YOU are lucky to still be here.


Goodluck and God Bless

[PTE23]

ThanksDTown I will def stay on a bit of test. I appreciatre the support

[Invrt]

That sucks man. I lost my brother some years ago and it really sucks. Time will heal most of it. But that doesn't help now. Concentrate on getting healthy,and getting off the pain killers. Definitly don't drop the test stay on TRT and use some hcg every 5 days to keep the "boys" interested.

[panther#1]

Sincerely sorry to here about your loss PTE. As stated above, do your best to come off pain meds sooner than later. Thoughts go out to you and your family.

[SIKNIK]

I agree get off the pain killers as soon as possible.My younger brother died at the same age and i used painkillers to numb the pain.Needless to say i was addicted for 5 years.It sucks to lose a loved one but it sucks more when i had to deal with the pain 5 years later.Its a fucked up ride wouldnt wish it on anyone so take care of you and the family.I feel for you pte take care.I hope they catch those assholes!!!!!!!!!!!! Im not saying you are the type to get addicted just letting you know how easy it could happen.

[tinom]

Dam brother, sorry for you, and your families loss. Hope you get 100% asap dog!

[Jello]

That area just doesn't get any better. I lived not far from there all my life until I moved to Arizona. I'm sorry for your loss Bro, and I hope you get justice for this. One way or another.

[0351mang]

Tell your doctor that you have been on steroids. That way he doesn't cross medicate or have conflicts with other drugs for surgeries and recovery. He would tell you if you should stay on or not. He has the PHD and we do not. Good luck.

I hope you and your family stay strong and I hope they catch those pussy ass gang bangers. I like it better when gangs eliminate eachother instead of good innocent people.

[mw2008]

Im so sorry for you and your families loss. It always seems like we loose the ones we love too soon. This shit needs to get resolved and someone needs to pay for it. So that you can even begin to heal. My thoughts are with you PTE. Watch the painkillers, they are easy to love and hard to let go. If you do have issues giving them up there is a medication your doc can give you that helps. Try to take care of yourself.

[Tyrone]

I can't say, "If I were you" because I've never been in your situation and hope to never be...But, right now, I'd take care of family and work exstensively with agents to identify the group(if at all possible) Those type of people have zero integrity and will "Roll" on one another if the right type of pressure is put on em...Believe me, you can get that similar group in a similar area if you want...

Truly, I would want to hunt them down and blast them all but, I wouldn't want to spend my life in prison...Work with them or not, but at least bring these little wanna be's to justice in the eyes of the law.;) FUCK THEM!!!Little kids can't fight with out numbers and weapons:mad:

I feel for ya man and I'd stay on a low dose of test if it were me...at least for now.

My condolences man.

[bcolby]

ill say a prayer for you and your family, good luck with your recovery.

[PTE23]

Thank you very much everyone for your comments. So far there still has not been any arrests but we are hoping for the best. I am going to stay on the test. Problem with the pain meds is I cant function without them right now and I have to change dressing on my wounds 3 times per day. I am also using lidocaine to numb it but oxycodone is a must for the time being. I will definitely come off ASAP though and understand everyones concern. I will keep everyone updated and thx again for the support

[0351mang]

Please let us know if they catch these bastards. You said you already picked one of them out in a line up? I hope that is a good lead in the case and they start pointing fingers at the waist of life who did this.

[joe4fsu]

So very sorry to hear about your loss! :( Please know that I will say a prayer for you and your family.

Try to keep your head up...

[Bryce123]

PTE23 I'm really sorry for your loss! I lost my 19 year old brother a few years ago and I know how you feel and you may wana ask the doctors for some zannex or lexpro something to take the edge off. Like Dtown said we should be able to carry anytime! I live in NC and I used to bounce at a mexican bar and they NEVER fight fair! Thats why I carry a Glock 45. Just keep yourself together for your family! Don't worry those lil vatos will get theirs!

[irishyankeenut]

So sad to hear things like this happen. I hope you recover swiftly. Even though your life has changed, retaliation may put you somewhere you don't want to be for a long time. Pray for understanding and peace, as we will all pray for you, your family and ultimately your brother. Stay Strong Brother.....

[WSPHXPELON]

I wish you 100% of my condoliences and 1 piece of unrelated advise:

If law enforcement happens to be browsing and see's this thread they will know exactly who you are and have all of your personal data very easily just by contacting the King County Sheriff’s Department. I personally would prefer to be more anonymus here on this page and if I were you I would ask for this thread to be deleted ASAP or I would ask to have my profile deleted and I would come back with a new profile...Just trying to look out brother...

Sorry for your loss...

[nxtarod]

Damn bro sorry to hear all this... My prayers are definitely with you and your family. I know what it's like to loose someone so close to you like that.

I hope those cowards get caught... I HATE mutherf*ckers that aren't man enough to go toe-to-toe. They have to jump someone, and even worse, bring out weapons like those cowards did.

[irish1ties]

I am so sorry man, I couldn't imagine what your going thru. I would definitely concentrate on being their for your family and vice verse. I will keep you and your family in our family prayers.

[thedon_1985]

I'm sorry to hear that man....
I hope you get better soon. They will eventually get whats coming to them...

[fueledbyhate]

this is sad my brother i wish you the best from the bottom of my heart I hate to hear such things may god be with you and your brother and your family. Take care of you and your family! I will be saying a prayer for you all!!!!!

[Bruce_Campbell]

God bless you. I will praying for you and your family.

[PTE23]

Thanks a lot everyone, I appreciate the support and prayers

[yafu]

Really sorry for your loss. Some GH should help speed the healing process. Will pray for you and your family. May your brother rest in peace.

[SHORTSTOP]

im very sorry for your loss. i had a couple friends get shot in front of me last year one of them died but it wuzent for no reason.

[lostwars]

dirty low life animals, no respect for a good old fashioned straightner, nobody wants to sort things with a good punch up
these muppets had to use weapons and there numbers and you and youre bro, may he rest in peace, theyve no honour
wish you a full recovery and a good way to give up the painkillers is to take them eod and then e2d untill you can go without, obviously just get well 1st

[JUICEDUP3]

wow.. thats fuckin crazy! sorry for ur loss bro. hope u heal quick and i hope those mother fuckers burn!

[Torque]

Wow this is the first time I am reading this. RIP for your brother. I hope you heal quickly. Defiantly let the doctor know that you are taking steroids. It will defiantly help him in making the proper judgments re: future procedures/medicine. I would also like to echo everybody's concern about the painkillers. Please get off them as soon as you are able to. These painkillers are not something to fuck with and are very addictive. I've taken percocet and oxy. Both are VERY strong. Be easy, and recover quickly. I'll be saying a small prayer.

[CollinDC]

Sorry to hear about that man, RIP to your brother and hope you have a speedy recovery, my prayers are with you and your family

[peptidoglycan]

Awww man... sorry to here all of this.. Such a mess... When i first clicked on this post i was excited to see what news you had because i havent heard from you in a while.. but unfortunatly not very good news. i hope the best for you my advice giving friend :) Keep us updated on your recovery. You may not be able to practice your trade but your advice is still needed.. thanks and talk to you soon.

[smallone]

I'm sorry for your loss and hope things get solved. I wouldnt worry about the pain killers/addiction/rationing them you were just stabbed and obviously need them as you see fit. It doesnt sound like you are emotionally medicating with them which would lead to abuse. Take it easy and worry about you and healing man both physically and emotionally. While pain killers are addicting they would be the last thing I would be worried about now. your wounds and your heart need healing. My condolences.

[killerbees]

Sorry about your loss.I also lost a brother be with your family that is the most important thing right now. Those chicken shit bastards will get thiers in the end.

[PTE23]

Thanks for all the support. Whats up peptidoglycan! Heres a little update. Doctor said Im healing up really fast, said it was remarkable! Must be the juice and protein shakes. Still on 250 mg test/wk and 100 mg masteron EOD. Theyve still not been able to charge anyone. One guy was about to cross the border to mexico and got arrested on a drug warrent on San Diego and is going to get moved back over here and hopefully they can pin a murder charge before he bails out... My brothers memorial was wednesday and it was a really good service but really sad of course. Still hasnt quite sunk in yet though with all the craziness in the last few weeks. I may try to get some grief counseling but havent decided yet. On a brighter note I was able to get a pretty good arm workout in yesterday and did some machine legs today. Cant do any power movements but can do some isolation work like side laterals for shoulders and concentration curls and cable tricep extensions. Going like 20 reps with light weight but better than nothing lol. Anyways I got another doc appt first thing tomorrow so Ill keep you all updated

[fatboybbw]

sorry to here about brother that sucks, I'm glad to here your feeling better may your brother rest in peace and may those bastard suffer

[bigirish]

my heart goes out to u in your family by even making these post and trying to get back in the gym already shows that u are a strong individual strength that im shur your family needs...most of us here including myself comprihend strength as how big we look or how much we lift but u are showing that u have true strength of heart...find some closure knowing that eventually these poor excuses as human beings will suffer for eternity for being the weaklings they are.

[cmc0311]

PTE23, I'm just a nobody to you but know you're not alone out there. Draw as much support from your friends and family as possible or the darkness will eat you alive from the inside out. End of the year 2008 I was in Iraq where 5 "brothers" I guess you could say, virtually at least...were hit by an IED in front of me by remote detonation, followed by an ambush. I was laid out from the blast, didn't realize till it was over the shrapnel littered up my arms and sappie plate...I remember trying to get up and get my eyes straight to identify where we were being shot at from, feeling so shitty and helpless I couldn't even help him I was so fucked up...I had to stay there till this February when I got out...maybe some are stronger than others, or some deal with things differently as well. A shit load of alcohol later and I still cant wash away the nightmares and anger...but to know there are brothers out there like yourself who can understand; it helps, every little bit. Might be my relentless Scottish blood saying catch those motherfuckers torture them, drink their blood and hand deliver their bodyparts to their parents but I know that'd be next to impossible finding a bunch of thugs out of the thousands out there...you my friend are stronger than I to continue on so quickly, I admire that though, gives me strength.

Shit I write too much, keep strong PTE23 > everyone's on your side of the ring bro.

[smallone]

I hope justice finds them either threw the law or another thug cuts their balls off. Stay at it. Not lifting specifically just doing what ever you do. I cant comment on the grief counseling as we are all different just do what you think you need. I'm glad your healing well. Take care.

[shreddersteve]

PTE23, I know you don't know me and I'm new here but I feel terrible reading this. I can't imagine what it's like to lose a brother. I'd fucking go crazy if my brother died. Good luck man and I hope they fry the fuckers that attacked you guys.

[rocket256]

WOW...this makes me sick....

I will pray for you, your brother (RIP), and your family bro.
DO NOT come off of test as tyrone mentioned, the depression will overwhelm you...even with PCT. Stick it out on 100mgs a week until you fight thru this.

Keep you chin up bro, YOU are lucky to still be here.


Goodluck and God Bless

I agree... My condolences go out to you and your family bro.

[PTE23]

Man there are some cool guys on this thread thanks for all the comments they are much appreciated (cmc0311, etc) Ill update soon

[jwalters]

Im so sorry to hear about this brother. My sincere condolences and prayers for you and your family.